IS IT OVER YET?????

DOES IT SEEM LIKE CHRISTMAS JUST WON'T END TO ANYONE ELSE BUT ME???? I REALLY DO LIKE CHRISTMAS FOLKS BUT EVERY YEAR I HAVE A HARDER TIME ENJOYING IT. I AM NOT SURE IF ITS BECAUSE MY ONLY CHILD ISN'T IN TO THE WHOLE SANTA THING ANYMORE OR THE WHOLE FAMILY GET TOGETHER THING,OR IF ITS BECAUSE I RUIN MY GIFTS EVERY YEAR EITHER BECAUSE I HAVE BOUGHT THEM MYSELF FOR MYSELF, HAVE TOLD THEM EXACTLY WHAT I WANT AND THEY NEVER GO OUTSIDE OF THE BOX AND THINK ON THEIR OWN OR IF ITS THAT I EXPECT SUCH GREAT THINGS, SUCH LOVING MOMENTS AND I AM SO DISAPPOINTED WHEN IT DOESN'T HAPPEN THAT WAY. SOMETIMES I THINK I AM LIVING IN A FAIRY TALE THAT HAS GONE VERY BAD, NO HAPPY ENDINGS HERE, NO RUNNING OFF WITH THE MOST AMAZING PERSON, NO JUNE AND WARD CLEAVER MOMENTS, INSTEAD IT FEELS LIKE I AM IN A HOLE THE SIZE OF WHO KNOWS WHAT AND NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO ACCEPT THINGS THE WAY THEY ARE IT JUST GETS WORSE AND THE HOLE GETS BIGGER. OKAY NOW THAT I FEEL I NEED TO JUMP ILL STOP WHINING. I DO KNOW THAT I AM THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN MAKE THINGS BETTER SO WITH THAT SAID LETS BRING ON 2008 WITH A BANG!!! I AM SO IN NEED OF CHANGE, THE ONLY THING SOLID IN MY LIFE IS MY FRIENDS AND I THANK GOD EACH AND EVERY DAY FOR THEM. SO TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS, THANK YOU AND KNOW THAT YOU HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART. GOD, CAN I GO FROM ONE EXTREME TO THE OTHER , SAD, TO GLAD, TO I AM NOT SURE HOW TO FEEL.

WELL I AM SURE I HAVE REALLY LEFT ALOT OF YOU GOING MAN SHE IS REALLY CRAZY BUT IF I DIDN'T HAVE THIS EMPTY SPACE TO VENT OR JUST SAY WHAT AND HOW I AM FEELING I WOULD PROBABLY NEED TO BE COMMITTED OR SOMETHING. SO THANK YOU FOR READING, THANK YOU FOR LISTENING AND I PROMISE ILL GET BETTER. I JUST NEED TO GET PAST THE HOLIDAYS!!!

LOVE TO YOU ALL, AND AGAIN I AM TRULY SORRY IF I HAVE LEFT YOU FEELING GROSS OR SAD,

JENNIFER :(